Mother's Day

It's been awhile since I have blogged. Both Mike and I have been extremely busy. I am not sure if I was working yet in my last blog.....but I also got a job with Mike about a week after he started. We are both very thankful to be working again in this bad economy and we both really like the company...and the people we work with. I wanted to give a quick update on that....but this blog isn't really about work. It's about Mother's Day.

No offense....but it's a day that I have dreaded the last two years. More so this year than last. Am I excited I get to see my Lulu ( my mom) today and tomorrow? Heck yeah! I miss her so much these days....I barely have time to even call her it seems. But I am also dealing with my personal feelings about Mother's Day....which I will come back to in a little bit.

My mom has been one of my best friends for the past 10 years. We have always been close....but there was a time in my life when I would hide alot from both her and my dad. I lied to them alot.....would sneak out of the house...I was places I shouldn't of been....you name it...I probably did it. But both of my parents were right there for me always. Once my dad died.....and because I was the only one that still lived at home....my mom and I had to go through alot of things together. She was all alone....and I was still single....and we depended on each other alot those first few years. I began to tell her everything about my life....and she pretty much did the same. We went through alot together....but there isn't one thing I would change about it. Whether she admits it or not....she depended on me and I depended on her. =) The bond that was formed over the past 10 years is one of the most important things in my life. My mother is my hero. She worked hard to support herself once my dad passed away...and she ALWAYS set a good example for my sisters and me. She brought us up in christian home, but not just that, she didn't just take us to church.....she lives by example. She doesn't pretend to be a christian....she IS a christian. She worked hard....set a good example.... provided....listened.....supported.....and loved.....and she still does. She is always there when I need her and I am sooooo thankful that I have her in my life. So mom.....Happy Mother's Day to you. Thank you for all that you do....and all that you are. And I can only hope that one day I will be the kind of mom to my kids as you have been to me. I love you.

There is alot more I want to say right now.....but it is hard for me to....so instead of sitting here crying my eyes out....and going on and on about how hard this weekend is for me....I am attaching a link....that my friend Melody (thank you Melody) posted on her blog. Please, please, please take the time to go read this person's blog. There is no way most of you can understand how I am feeling right now.....let me just say that when I read this blog it made me cry. When I got to the part that says..."You see, my lovelies, my heart doesn’t just go out to mom’s on Mother’s Day – but also to those whose desire to be a mom supersedes almost every thing in their life." I can relate...and I find comfort in knowing that someone out there does "get it".

http://reallybadhairday.blogspot.com/2009/05/life-is-just-snapshot-really.html

For all of my friends and family that have little ones...Happy Mother's Day. I am sure all of you realize how blessed you are.