Update

Since my last post alot has changed.

Mike was able to find a job...and he started this past Monday. We just worked on getting him a job first since the job market is horrible in the oil & gas field. The job is in Shreveport, LA.....so that is where we are now.....living in the RV again. He came on Monday....and I joined him Tuesday evening. Since we got here....the company he works for has offered me a job also. Right now it is just a temporary job.....but they have another project starting soon and she mentioned putting me on it. I am thankful God has provided for us. Although I was kinda looking forward to a little break.

The last month has been very emotional for us. Alot of change in a short amount of time. I do NOT deal with change very well. I never have. I get very emotional. It was hard for me to leave the house on Tuesday. It was my comfort zone. I had my friends and alot of family there to keep my mind off things....and now I am out of my comfort zone. It's just me and mike....on the road again. Don't get me wrong....I love having all my husband's attention. lol.....however....at this time in our lives....the extra support from everyone else has been good. I look at everyone else's lives and I think....wow....everything just seems to fall in place for them. And I guess what I mean by that is.....babies. I feel like the one thing I really, really want....is the one things I can't have. And it gets me really, really down.

Anyways....let me move on. Mike and I also celebrated our 3 year anniversary on the 25th. He had to work all day....and basically all we did was go to dinner. Which by the way was a very interesting experience. For one....since we got here Shreveport has had bad weather. When we went to dinner it had just started raining. We got our food...and then the whole restaurant lost power. And it never came back on. Not to mention the fact that 3 tornadoes touched down about a mile from where we were at. Kinda scary. lol I'll never forget our three year anniversary....that's for sure. Anyways....I look forward to many, many, many more years with Mike. It's hard to believe that we have been married 3 years already!!!

Well....that's it for now....

When it rains....it POURS!

Mike and I found out on Thursday that our project here in Fort Worth had been cancelled. What does that mean? Well....by the end of the day tomorrow....both of us will be out of a job. Normally that wouldn't freak me out as much..... however....the oil & gad industry is not doing so great right now....and there aren't many jobs out there right now. It's going to be very hard to find one. At this point....we are hoping that Mike can at least find something. One income is better than none.
I have been feeling pretty down since Thursday. The past 3 weeks have been pretty tough....and now this?! For real? Am I having a pity party....probably so. But oh well. I am mad, sad, and nervous all at the same time. I feel like things around me are crashing down. And YES I know that God will not put anything in our lives that we can't handle......but geez....enough with the trails and tribulations. A month ago I felt so good about the future and everything we had to look forward too. And yes....we still have the future to look forward to.....but the future seems very shaky right now. Mike and I are fine....I am NOT referring to my marriage at all. We love each other and I am soooooo thankful to God that he has put him in my life. I know that we will get through this somehow...I just feel very overwhelmed right now. Please keep us in your prayers. Please pray that we are able to find jobs in this horrible economy....and please pray that God will heal our hearts from loosing Ava. It's ALOT to deal with in such a short amount of time.