Just checking in.....

It's been a little while since I have written anything. I actually stopped working about 2 weeks ago and have been busy catching up on some very neglected projects. Our project is wrapping up and the part I was hired for was over.....Mike has been working still....but should be done this week. Hopefully a new project will come up soon and we won't be out of work to long. However....it has been nice having a little break....and I know Mike will enjoy some time off from work. Therefore....we will probably be back in Weatherford this coming weekend for a little while. Yipppeeeee!





This weekend of course is Father Day's weekend. To be honest....I don't think Mike has really put two and two together yet. See.....father's day is Sunday.....and Sunday was also Ava's due date. He knows that my due date is this weekend....but not sure if he actually realizes that it falls on Father's Day.





The past couple of days I have been thinking alot....and of course feeling down. I think for what I have been through the past year....I have done a pretty good job handling it. At least the best I could. I try NOT to "think" to much....but I have not been looking forward to this day for a month now. For us....it's another reminder. I know that God is in control....but to be honest....I feel like a failure sometimes. Although I know there isn't anything I could of done to prevent what happened....I still feel like I failed. Mike should be holding his baby girl on Sunday. Getting his first Father's day card from his daughter. But that won't be the case. And I feel like I failed him once again. Just please keep us in your prayers this weekend as we face a couple of things that will be very difficult to deal with.





I also wanted to share a picture with you all. Last week Ava's headstone came in and was placed at her grave. I think they did a beautiful job on it and I just wanted to share it with yall.






Back to Father's day for a minute. This past April 20th was the 10 year anniversary of my dad's death. I have pretty much hated Father's Day ever since. I miss my dad very much and I think about him often. Everyday I wish he was here still. He was a wonderful person and he always set a good example. So eventhough he is not here....Happy Father's Day dad. We love you and miss you very much.

On a positive note....this is also the first year that I have a new step-father. Ross is a great man and I am very honored to have him as my step-father. Because we are going home this weekend...I won't actually get to see him....so Ross....thanks for everything you do....thank you for making my mom extremely happy....and I hope you have a wonderful Father's day!